(…You won’t be happy ’til the bottle’s broken…)
Nothing’s gonna drag me down
To a death that’s not worth cheating
-’Baby Britain’, Elliott smith
God it’s been a lovely day, everything’s been goin’ my way, I took out the trash today, and I’M. ON. FIRE.
-H channelling Amanda Palmer
Not thinking about anything is zen. Once you know this, walking, standing, sitting, or lying down, everything you do is zen. To know that the mind is empty is to see the Buddha…Using the mind to look for reality is delusion. Not using the mind to look for reality is awareness. Freeing oneself from words is liberation.
-Bodhidharma
So Relax!
The unreliable narrator
Yep, that’s certainly me.
Procrastination Lit – Great novels about wasting time: http://www.slate.com/id/2191252/pagenum/all/
Reading Slate’s procrastination issue, I have discovered that literature can consist of (restrained) rants, novel length paragraphs and pages-long sentances. Hm looks like I do have a chance.
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ne plus ultra
Eng. nee pluhs uhl-truh
1. the highest point; acme.
2. the most intense degree of a quality or state.
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“What I must do is all that concerns me, not what the people think. This rule, equally arduous in actual and intellectual life, may serve for the whole distinction between greatness and meanness. It is the harder, because you will always find those who think they know what is your duty better than you know it. It is easy in the world to live after the world’s opinion; it is easy in solitude to live after our own; but the great person is one who in the midst of the crowd keeps with perfect sweetness the independence of solitude.”
-Ralph Waldo Emerson
Problems Resulting From Perfectionism and Emotional Sensitivities
- Perfectionism can lead to fear of failure, in turn causing a gifted child to avoid failure by refusing to even try something (including doing a homework assignment!)
- Keen observation, imagination, and ability to see beyond the obvious can cause a gifted child to appear shy, holding back in new situations in order to consider all the implications.
- A gifted child may require full details before answering questions or offering help, making him or her appear socially shy.
- Intense sensitivity can cause gifted children to take criticism, or even general anger, very personally. Childhood slights do not roll off their backs.
- Sensitivity and well-developed sense of right and wrong can lead to concern over wars, starving children, pollution and other injustice and violence. If they are overloaded with images and discussions of these issues, they can become introverted and withdrawn or even suffer from “existential depression.”
One Solution: Helping Gifted Children Cope with Intense Emotions
- From http://giftedkids.about.com/od/socialemotionalissues/a/gtproblems.htm
I am only ever happy in retrospect. Goddamit.
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All I can expect and enjoy is a paycheck from X
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“Plus I’m only 26 years old
My grandma died in ‘83
That’s lots of time if I don’t smoke
I think I’ll wait another year”
-’Another Year’, Amanda Palmer
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A morbid steak runs through
The whole of my family
But for you I could put it to rest
-’Boston’, Vampire Weekend
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“Reality leaves a lot to the imagination.” – John Lennon
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Antidote:
Hey you, expecting results without effort! So sensitive! So long-suffering! You, in the clutches of death, acting like an immortal! Hey sufferer, you are destroying yourself!
-Santideva, Bodhicaryavatara
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Other theories suggest that petroglyphs were made by shamans in an altered state of consciousness[4], perhaps induced by the use of natural hallucinogens. Many of the geometric patterns (known as form constants) which recur in petroglyphs and cave paintings have been shown to be “hard-wired” into the human brain; they frequently occur in visual disturbances and hallucinations brought on by drugs, migraine and other stimuli.
- http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Petroglyph
names…
http://www.surnamedb.com/surname.aspx?name=coultas
Surname: Coultas
This most interesting and unusual surname is of early medieval English origin, and is a topographical or occupational name for someone who lived or worked at a stables, a colt-house or colt-keeper, from the early modern English word “coulthus”, which is a compound of “co(u)lt”, an Olde English word for a young ass, or young horse, a colt, and “hus”, the Olde English word for house. The name itself is widespread in the Yorkshire region, and was first recorded there in the late 16th Century (see below). The Church Registers of Yorkshire record the following early entries of the surname: the christening of Robert, son of Robertus Cowltus, on February 26th 1575 at Hackness; the marriage of Robert Coultas and Anna Snipe on July 22nd 1576, also at Hackness; while Isabel Coultas married Richard Markson on October 26th 1621 at Wintringham. The first recording of the surname in London Church Registers is the christening of Margaritt Coltis, daughter of William Coltis, on May 11th 1576 at St. Botolph without Aldgate. The first recorded spelling of the family name is shown to be that of William Cowthus, which was dated 1562, in the “Register of the Freemen of the City of York”, during the reign of Queen Elizabeth 1, known as “Good Queen Bess”, 1558 – 1603. Surnames became necessary when governments introduced personal taxation. In England this was known as Poll Tax. Throughout the centuries, surnames in every country have continued to “develop” often leading to astonishing variants of the original spelling.
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Name: Darko (I also like Darco)
Gender:Boy
Origin:Slavonic
Meaning:Gift
Pronunciation:(DAR ko)
Form of:Itself (Darko)
Categories: Slovenian, Slavic, Croatian, Serbian
Surname: Darco
Recorded as Darci, Darco, and in England apparently Darko, this is a French surname, or at least a surname of French origins. It is locational from the town of Arcy, and hence the fused form of D’arci or later Darcy, in the departement of La Manche, in Northern France. It is also recorded in the famous English historical record and register of lands, the Domesday Book, in 1086, with that of Norman de Arci of Lincoln. Locational surnames, wherever they are found in the world, are usually ‘from’ names. That is to say names that were given to people after they left their original homes to move somewhere else, and were best identified by being called after their former homestead, wherever that might be. Over the centuries spelling being at best erratic, and local accents and dialects very thick, often lead to the development of ’sounds like’ spellings. In this case the surviving church registers of France, most were destroyed in the famous Revolution of 1792, includes examples such as Jean Darco and his wife Jeanne, nee Barre, at Vendresse, in the Ardennes, on May 26th 1718, and Anne Darcy who married Simon Aubert, on January 25th 1780 at Colombey-les-Belles, Meurther-et-Moselle. Throughout the centuries, surnames in every country have continued to “develop” often leading to astonishing variants of the original spelling.
Name: Devi
Gender:Girl
Origin:Indian
Meaning:God
Pronunciation:(dev ee)
Form of:Dev (male – God)
Categories: Hindu, Sanskrit, Hindi, Indian
Used in:Hindi speaking countries
Name: Devika
Gender:Girl
Origin:Sanskrit
Meaning:Like god
Pronunciation:(dey VIH ka)
Form of:
Itself (Devika)
Categories:Hindu, Sanskrit, Hindi, Indian
Used in:Hindi speaking countries
Name: Asuka
Gender:Girl
Origin:Japanese
Meaning:Smell of tomorrow
Pronunciation:(AH soo kah)
Form of:Itself (Asuka)
Categories:Asian, Japanese
Used in:Japanese speaking countries
Additional info:The Japanese female name Asuka may be written with the characters for “tomorrow” and “incense; smell; perfume”.
Name: Shigeru
Gender:Boy
Origin:Japanese
Meaning:Luxuriant
Pronunciation:(SHEE geh ru)
Form of:Itself (Shigeru)
Categories:Japanese
Used in:Japanese speaking countries
Additional info:The Japanese name Shigeru may be written with the character for “overgrown; grow thick; be luxuriant”.
Name: Shinji
Gender:Boy
Origin:Japanese
Meaning:True ruler
Pronunciation:(SHEEN jee)
Form of:Itself (Shinji)
Categories:Japanese
Used in:Japanese speaking countries
Additional info:The Japanese male name Shinji may be written with the characters for “true; reality” (shin) and “director; official; govt office; rule; administer” (ji). Other possibilities include “true; reality” (shin) and “two” (ji), as well as “new” (shin) and “director; official; govt office; rule; administer” (ji).
Name: Rei
The boy’s and girl’s name Rei \rei\ is pronounced RAY-ee.
It is of Japanese origin, and its meaning is “law, rule; strive”
Name: Éowyn
Gender:Girl
Origin:Literary
Meaning:Horse lover
Pronunciation:(AY oh win)
Form of:Itself (Éowyn)
Categories:Literary Characters, Tolkien
Used in:English speaking countries
Additional info:Professor J.R.R. Tolkien created the name Éowyn using elements from Old English. In his novel ‘The Lord of the Rings’, Eowyn is the niece of King Theoden of Rohan.
Éowyn is a powerful woman and a warrior in her own right.
Name: Galadriel
Gender:Girl
Origin:Literary
Meaning:Maiden crowned by a radiant garland
Pronunciation:(guh la DREE el)
Form of:Itself (Galadriel)
Categories:Literary Characters, Tolkien
Used in:English speaking countries
Additional info:Galadriel is a name created by J.R.R. Tolkien for ‘The Lord of the Rings’. She appears also in ‘The Silmarillion’ and other works involving the fictional land of Middle-earth.
Name: Lórien
Gender:Boy
Origin:Literary
Meaning:God of dreams
Pronunciation:(lor ee en)
Form of:Itself (Lórien)
Categories:Tolkien
Used in:English speaking countries
Additional info:Lórien is the name of one of the Valar in J.R.R. Tolkien’s lore of Middle-earth. He is also known as Irmo.
“Master of Visions and Dreams. Originally named Irmo, but referred to more commonly as Lórien, after his dwelling place. Lórien and Mandos are the Fëanturi, masters of spirits. Lórien the younger is the master of visions and dreams. His gardens in the land of the Valar, where he dwells with his spouse Estë, are the fairest place in the world and are filled with many spirits. All those who dwell in Valinor find rest and refreshment at the fountain of Irmo and Estë.”
Name: Theron
Gender:Boy
Origin:Greek
Meaning:Hunter
Pronunciation:(THER on); (ther ON)
Form of:Itself (Theron)
Categories:Surnames, Greek
Used in:English speaking countries
Additional info: From ‘theraein’, ‘to hunt’. Theron was an ancient king of Sicily, though the name is today encountered mostly as a surname.
Name: Laith
Gender:Boy
Origin:Arabic
Meaning:Lion
Pronunciation:(LAH eeth)
Form of:Itself (Laith)
Categories:Muslim, Arabic
Used in:Arabic speaking countries
Name: Haidar/Hayder
Gender:Boy
Origin:Sanskrit
Meaning:Lion
Origin:Indian
Meaning:Lion
Origin:Arabic
Meaning:Lion
Pronunciation:(hi dar)
Form of:Haidar
Name: Asteria
Gender:Girl
Origin:Greek
Meaning:Star
Pronunciation:(ah STEH ree ah)
Form of:Aster
Categories:Saints, Greek Mythological
Additional info:In Greek mythology Asteria was a daughter of the titans, sister of Leto and mother of Hekate.
It was also the name of a martyr in the 3th-century A.D.
Name: Arielle
Gender:Girl
Origin:Hebrew
Meaning:Lion of God
Pronunciation:(ah ree EL); (AYR ee el)
Form of:Ariel
Categories:
Jewish, English
Used in:English speaking countries
Additional info:The name is borne by French-American actress Arielle Dombasle and American actress Arielle Kebbel.
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Name: Aster
Origin and Meaning of the Name Aster
Gender:Both
Origin:Greek
Meaning:Star
Origin:English
Meaning:Aster flower
Pronunciation:(ASS ter)
Form of:Itself (Aster)
Categories:Nature, Dutch, English, Greek
Used in:Dutch and English speaking countries
Additional info:From the ancient Greek noun. Also could be used in hommage to the aster flower.
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Name: Leandra
Gender:Girl
Origin:Greek
Meaning:Lion Man
Pronunciation:(leh AN drah)
Form of:Leander
Categories:English, Greek
Used in:English speaking countries
Additional info:This is the feminine form of Leander.
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Name: Léandre
Gender:Boy
Origin: Greek
Meaning:Lion Man
Origin:French
Meaning:Lion Man
Pronunciation:(lay AHN druh)
Form of:Leandros
Categories:Mythological, French, Greek Mythological
Used in:French speaking countries
Additional info:French form of Leander.
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Name: Lev
Gender:Boy
Origin:Latin
Meaning:Lion
Pronunciation:(lev); (lyehv)
Form of:Leon
Categories:Jewish, Israeli, Hebrew, Russian
Used in:Hebrew and Russian speaking countries
Additional info:Several popes have carried this name.
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Name: Leander
Gender:Boy
Origin:Greek
Meaning:Lion Man
Pronunciation:(lee AN der)
Form of:Leandros
Categories:Mythological, Saints, Canadian, African American, American, English, Greek, Greek Mythological
Used in:English speaking countries
Additional info:The legend has Leander swimming across the Hellespont every night to visit his lover, Hero. One night a great storm came up and he drowned leading Hero to despair and throw herself into the water, also to perish.
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Name: Levon
Gender:Boy
Origin:Latin
Meaning:Lion
Pronunciation:(LEE von)
Form of:Leon
Categories:Armenian, Canadian, African American, American, English
Used in:English speaking countries
Additional info:This is actually an Armenian variant of Leon, now used as a given name in North America.
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Name: Hoshi
Gender:Girl
Origin:Japanese
Meaning:Star
Pronunciation:(HO shee)
Form of:Itself (Hoshi)
Used in:
Japanese speaking countries
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Name: Ishtar
Gender:Girl
Origin:Persian
Meaning:Star
Origin:Assyrian
Meaning:N/A
Pronunciation:(ISH tar)
Form of:Itself (Ishtar)
Categories:Mythological, Farsi, Syrian, Persian
Additional info:Persian goddess of love, war, and fertility.
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Name: Seiki
Gender:Both
Origin:Japanese
Meaning:Star and beginning
Pronunciation:(SAY kee)
Form of:Itself (Seiki)
Categories:Asian, Unisex, Japanese
Used in:Japanese speaking countries
Additional info:The Japanese name Seiki may be written with the characters for “star” (sei) and “beginning; account” (ki) – among other possibilities.
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Name: Seren
Gender:Girl
Origin:Welsh
Meaning:Star
Pronunciation:(SEH ren)
Form of:Itself (Seren)
Categories:Nature, Welsh
Used in:Welsh speaking countries
Additional info:Of modern coinage.
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| From: |
Olah |
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| Date: | 07 Sep 2008, 06:40 PM |
| Subject: | Who wants to play pretend with me? |
| Body: | Remember when you were a kid, and you’d play pretend? You could see fairies, you could see goblins and if you stood behind a cardboard box then you were a shopkeep? You could sell a loaf of bread which was actually a bucket of mud to the customer that was actually your sister for some invisible money. And it was freakin’ awesome. Nowadays if you want to try to experience some kind of dire situation where you and your friends are being chased by monsters, hunting a Dragon, or assassinating somebody (Because you’re a Ninja), then the best you can hope for is watching it in a DVD or playing it in a Video Game. Back in the day if you wanted to be batman, you didn’t go watch batman, you didn’t go play a batman game, you just put on the fucking costume and you WERE batman! And it didn’t even matter if you didn’t have a costume, you’d just make wooshing noises when you moved and that was enough. I say we play pretend. Who wants to play pretend with me? I’m sick of waiting for the apocalypse, and I’m sick of waiting for Zombies. So how about we all just get together, sleep in some room, and when we wake up, we’ll play pretend that while we were asleep, the world came to its inevitable end! We’ll collect whatever weapons we can, and kill the zombies around us! Sure, they’re actually people, but if you imagine hard enough then it’ll seem like the real deal! And if the cops show up, then they’re the evil robots from the future, trying to take over the ruins of earth! AND WE MUST DESTROY THEM! We’ll have so much fun! You can wear whatever you want! If you want to be a super hero, then bam, you’re a super hero! We can hide in shrubs, we can walk into shops and take whatever we want, and whoever tries to stop us is a zombie! And if the robots show up, fuck it, we can beat them down too! Eventually, the robots will capture us, and lock us up with the other zombies. But the game doesn’t have to stop there! We can play pretend forever! AND EVER! Who’s with me? Who wants to play pretend? I am so fucking sick of this reality. |
…As a kid, Ianto had always had a bit of an obsession with detective novels; he loved Chandler and Mosley and Hammett because their ‘heroes’ were always dark and bitter and desperate and real…
From Fanfic.
http://community.livejournal.com/ivoryxandxgold/10707.html#cutid1
Dream Deferred by Langston Hughes
Dream Deferred
What happens to a dream deferred?
Does it dry up
Like a raisin in the sun?
Or fester like a sore–
And then run?
Does it stink like rotten meat?
Or crust and sugar over–
like a syrupy sweet?
Maybe it just sags
like a heavy load.
Or does it explode?
Langston Hughes
“…As a kid, Ianto had always had a bit of an obsession with detective novels; he loved Chandler and Mosley and Hammett because their ‘heroes’ were always dark and bitter and desperate and real…”
From fanfic..
